Tomorrow's Joke...

"The crisis of today is the joke of tomorrow" - H.G. Wells

When we're in the midst of a dreadful time, it often helps to remember that one day we'll be able to tell a great story about it, one we'll laugh at. We'll laugh because, in retrospect, what we thought was a crisis really wasn't so serious after all. Or we'll laugh because we made it through the crisis and came out stronger on the other side.

I have been pouring over all of my inspirational books for days now, desperately searching for words, phrases, and prayers to help me keep the nasty, negative and pessimistic attitude I have lurking inside me, at bay. If there's one thing that I don't want, is to look back at this dark time in my life, and wish I would have handled it with more maturity. But that nastiness and negativity is right under the surface...right on the tip of my tongue. It is literally all I can do not to utter a thousand curse words at God right now. It's all I can do to not walk into my director's office and tell him how I really feel. And it's all I can do to keep a smile on my face every day. I am so beat down...both physically and emotionally.

Reading the above daily inspiration, reminds me, again, that this time in my life is only temporary. I know I have said that numerous times already...but reitterating it over and over again helps me actually believe it. And if I have to say it a hundred more times in order to get through this time, you better believe I will do just that.

Today's affirmation: "I'll try to keep my perspective, remembering that even the worst day is only one small moment in my life".

Today I pray: "May God keep me from worrying unduly about small things. May He, instead, open my eyes to the grandeur of His universe and the ceaseless wonders of His earth. May He grant me the breadth of vision which can reduce any small, fretful concern of mine to the size of a fly on a cathedral window".

Just because I am having an especially hard day today...

I thought I'd post some extra affirmations.

" The shape of my body does not change who I am"

"I have the courage to eat today"

"Eating regularly helps my mind and body to function normally"

" I deserve to feel good about my body"

"I invite into my life people who support and nurture me"

"I give myself premission to ask for comfort and support"

"I am supported and loved by unseen friends and mentors"

"I am thankful for what I have"

"I have the courage to live in the moment"

"I live in the present"

"I take one thing at a time"

"I am feminine in the finest sense of the word"

"I am worthwile and capable even though I make mistakes"

While I was in treatment...

we spent a lot of time using affirmations as a way to boost our morale. I still rely heavily on them whenever I'm feeling sad, frustrated or overwhelmed. Here are some that I really like...enjoy!

Though noone can go back and make a new start, anyone can start from now and make a new end.

To be upset over what I don't have is to waste what I do have.

I forgive myself and others, release the past, and move forward with love in my heart.

I will not be embarassed by my pain. I will go through it with dignity. It will enhance me.

I will resist anything that takes me off the chosen path of recovery.

I am in charge. I am responsible for the direction of my boat!

Noone can make me a victim unless I allow them to.

I am naturally beautiful when I am myself.

Today is the beginning of the rest of my life. It is a clean slate. I will begin it totally refreshed and just live it.

When I look back at my past I will look tenderly and gently at all that I have been through. I will be proud of my accomplishments and how far I have come.

I deserve to recover.